I decided to start blogging again. Lol..

 While I certainly dont know if I will stick with this grand idea, I do like the thought of putting my thoughts to something other than my own head. I do enjoy the quiet and the silence so much. SO MUCH. I need it. I didnt realize how much I enjoyed having personal alone time until I really got to live on my own. Doing things, like dishes, laundry, showering, eating...in silence, is so lovely. BUT sometimes, I wish I had someone here to talk to/with...an adult. Preferably male. lol. Just about my thoughts. I have been going to a therapist for a couple of years now and I truly do feel the most like myself I have ever been. But I dont know how to just be okay with being me. I've always strived for perfection. Even when I do great, I want to do better. And when I do meet my own expectations for myself, I beat myself up about it. I anticipate so many of us do this. I dont know if it's the covid world and working from home five days a week that has made me overly critical of my own thoughts and behaviors. If you're reading this, thanks for coming. Haha. I cant promise it'll always be fun to read, but I can promise my goal is memorialize my thoughts so that my future self can look back and hopefully not be embarrassed. haha. but also so I can see my own mental growth. I am a bit nervous to share personal things about myself, but I think this may keep me sane. :)

I'm going to go on ahead and throw this one out into the world of words and then I think I'm going to refresh and update this page for this new me. Haha.